Tuesday, April 28, 2015

emotional wreck

       What are feelings?
       Is it okay to be emotionally unstable? Just due to the fact once in their lifetime they had someone ruin how they felt about them. Just one time, can we be happy without an image coming to our head, making us feel miserable and depressed about how we could've done something to prevent that situation but its too late now. We try to make ourselves happy, what we forget, is that we need to be happy in the inside with ourselves before we try to make us feel some type of way. Peace within ourselves is the key to having a happy life.  Don't you think?
        The fact, we are emotionally unstable is we don't think we are good enough due to the past experiences. Once in our lifetime, we have met a certain someone to make us feel as a piece of trash that can't even be fixed from all the imperfections. Sometimes, we just need to fix ourselves. It takes us 10 times longer to put ourselves back together, then for us to break down. Now we are strong. Strong because we have this feeling we are indestructible. But once we are broken down, we seem to not get back up.
       Why?
       As a teenager I know what it is to break down crying. You feel like your air is limited and every time you try to grasp it, they take more away. We don't seem to know that we are valuable. But we have those experiences, images, feelings that just don't go away. Being depressed has nothing to do with this. What it does? Is just us trying to fix ourselves. All our flaws, define who we are.
      We are perfect imperfections.
      We are creations of god. We are made all different. Different as in being who we are made to be. Different as in a miniature elephant, its still an elephant right? God loves all his children. We are the future, that has to mess up a couple of times in order to understand who we are. Sometimes hurting ourselves and being skarred emotionally, where we are just afraid to have that same feeling again.
          Being an emotional wreck is normal now in days. There is help everywhere, as in a teacher, parent or a simple friend. We need to be found of our inner beauty and accept us for who we are, and not what people make us feel who are. We only live once right? Well, its time to make our life worth while. Let's not fall because THEY want to, we need to pick ourselves up because we are different, and we just are perfect imperfections trying to show the world who we are.

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

teen pregnancy

    Strict parents are the parents who create trouble (not saying that they never did anything bad when they were young) , just that they are the reason some teens be getting pregnant. “You aren't allowed to date till your 18, don't talk to those to those boys”, little do they know when they hit the sheets these kids be sneaking out at midnight to see these boys. Birth control is the perfect way to prevent it, but why? Teenagers are too young to think about having sex. Sex, sex, sex. Back in the old days parents didn't have to worry about their teenage daughters coming home throwing up. They seemed to have more respect for themselves, than now (not saying that we don't respect ourselves now in days).
    Teen pregnancy is the way gossiping starts, “did you know shes a h**”, little do they know this girl did it for love. Birth control can mess up these girls bodies. To me, birth control is better than these kids getting pregnant and having a child that most likely their parents will not love because they'll think its a “mistake”.
    Why struggle with a baby, education and work? Put on a rubber (condom), close your legs and focus on education, and just listen to your parents.
    As a teenager, I know what is to have a kinda strict parent. She lets the leash sometimes loose and I don't disappoint her. I do good. I know if I ever got pregnant, she would be disappointed of me. A kid shouldn't know what being a disappointment is. But he should know what failing is. You catch the difference. Failing is something you can fix, well to us kids when we usually talk about failing, we think of grades and behaving better.
           Teenagers shouldn't even think about getting pregnant until they know how to wipe their butts and know how to clean the house. Simple as that. The problem is that teenagers are like monkeys curious to find things, like a big scavenger hunt with no ending.
         Let's go out.
         Have fun.
         While your gut says no, your mind says yes. "16 and pregnant", are the perfect show's to show the down effects of being pregnant in early ages isn't as perfect books and movies make it seem. Our lives aren't like The Jetsons, a happy family in outer space. Reality hits you. You faceplant against the cement as in Tom trying to catch Jerry in the show Tom and jerry.
          Teen pregnancy has become so popular that it is normal for us to walk in a restaurant and see a young couple eating. You just wonder what was going through their head. Its normal as just waking up and yawning that first thing morning.
            Little to know, we are just so use to this pregnancy, that in Hispanics and other races you expect them to be pregnant at the age of 16. Why can't it be white people too? Somehow its more on us poor people because we seem to want to be some ho**s.
           Bottom line is, we shouldn't do what percentages say we will become when we turn a certain age. We are better than pregnancy, drugs, jail and etc. We have to know what age everything is appropriate because sooner or later we will grow old disappointed if we ever did a mistake to change our lives forever.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

love is a curse

                 Do you ever meet the most handsome guy ever and just stare drooling saliva out of the corner of your mouth? You love everything about him, until you find out he pulled you into the house of the devil. Love. What a mischievous thing to do, to a poor innocent girl. Don’t you think?
     When your mother doesn’t accept of your relationship with this guy, all you do is ask why? Mother knows why, she is just protecting us from the bowels of the devil, trying to pull us into the heat of love that will destroy ourselves if we fell for him. “He is my everything, I love him”, words from a teenager, or is it the devil possesing the teenagers body and making her say that and believe what she is saying. As if we fall into a 100 feet pool, drowning, we see people around us happy, we scream for help, but no one pays attention to us in pain. Seems to be depression to how I just described it to be.
    Okay, maybe love isnt that bad. Who am I kidding, it will literally eat your your self esteem once you break up. The person who made you feel like a queen, makes you feel like poop sitting on the grass on a long summer day.
            It wont happen again. I promise.
    I’m sorry.
            Why don’t we just prevent us from falling in this hole with no escape of love. I bet if we switched shoes, the pain wouldn’t be here. I really am sorry. It wont happen again. It isn’t like we can just put white out in every scar to make it blend in.
             If you happened to know teenagers end up falling in Love so much. Due to the feelings it won't happen again. Yupp, Love, is the Devil itself hidden in this costume of happiness. Why don't we just drop out of school because we think this person will stay with us forever and grow a family with them when they are just temporary. No ring on the finger, but honey it won't hurt to lose focus on everything for one person.
             Make this kid your world. It won't hurt. Start skipping school to see him, do drugs if he does them, start failing school, or why don't we just run away from a household that has all the support we need but take for granted cause we are focused on Love.
            No, I can't lose him.
            Being loved is being hated on. God brought this gift to earth to be supported through good and bad. But to my concerns when is failing a class or two cause you're out all night with this boy more important. Education shouldn't even exist, because most of us are going to take it for granted if we let love keep separating us from our goals. I think we should just bury all this books, drop out and destroy this schools to be with the one person we won't be with forever. Maybe.
              Sorry.
              Maybe, there should be a education system where we can get separated from this failure of love to people who want to actually achieve something. Education is poop now in days to teenagers because you only live once. Y.O.L.O. right? We should go back to living like Adam and Eve with little knowledge, all we knew was to grow up, have a family and work till we die. Now imagine a society like that. Peaceful. Or will it be?
              If we put all this effort for one kid, why not in work. Work seems to get money and food on the reach. Getting paid 7.50 is far from perfect because it's money either way. Imagine life would be perfect if we didn't have education. Yeah love is important. But getting that low wage money. Yes, that's even better. Having those 20 dollars extra after paying bills will definitely get us that spoiling feeling buying chips and a drink.
              But, I don't want to go to school.
               Once upon a time...a fairytale can make you dream into prince charming saving you. Is he really saving you from this earth that will only create problems. I say, burn this schools. We don't need them after all. We can make a living. Buying roman noodles, and water for a whole month with the person you love is perfect. Wait, I forgot, while living in a apartment with one bedroom late in rent two months.
           If you want that life. I assure you. Being focused only on love will get you there. Trust me love is wonderful. So if I were you, forget about school, money and find you some low wage love.